Centered

Dishes half completed, I did make dinner 2 nights in a row (and pretty good dinner I must add). Fed kids and had them actually dressed down for bed (not going to sleep in clothes they were already wearing) all before 7 p.m., wow feeling accomplished! Living Room looks like a throw blanket exploded mixed with towels because kids decided the towels that have been in a basket for three days needed to be part of the explosion. Is this your house or just mine? That seems like that one week out of the month you actually caught up just went to the curb. Now back to square one of laundry for DAYSSSS and dishes that never end, floors dirty, and fans dusty (HAHA, who cleans those now days).

I would love to tell you that through all this mess Gods been speaking to me about how to be more organized and in control of the cleanness of my home. He hasn’t… I don’t know why, I have been waiting for God’s word telling me to kick it in gear, just haven’t seen or heard him speak to me yet or give me new ideas yet. What God has been speaking about is being Spiritually Prepared for anything. 

You see, all this mess and time constraining things that need to be done can sometimes take us out of the ‘Spiritual Realm’ (lets call it that). I feel like God is just in this place of keeping me centered in him, but first he’s needing my full attention. Like place everything away and focus on me attention. (Disclaimer: Not saying I’m just being super lazy in the realm but just not on top of my game & forgetting God). Hmmm. Let’s dive into those last two words of disclaimer ‘forgetting God’. Is that pulling a string in your spirit right now? It does me.

Every time I get into a mode of being the best Wife/Mother/House Cleaner, I can’t seem to add God into what I do every day. Lets be transparent (as my friend Jocelin would say) ITS HARDDD Y’ALLL! I don’t understand how to manage this? To have a SOLD OUT relationship with GOD and be all the things above… pulling a string or two again. Yeah that’s where Gods had me, pulling a whole yarn ball out of my Spirit showing me that I can manage this all and be on FIRE for HIM! BUT FIRST he needs to know where my faith stands (Col.2:6 AMP). Are you regulating your life and conducting yourself to be in union with him? Pause. Read that question again until you know the true answer. I will wait with you, my words wont go anywhere… Union Definition: ‘the Action or Fact of joining or being joined’. Y’all it’s an action of joining in with God in your life and conducting yourself to be SOLD OUT, ON FIRE, FEARLESS all while managing all the steps of a Wife/Mother/House Cleaner. If I can’t find a way to be Sold out, on FIRE, and Fearless while managing my duties I have been given, I will lose focus on the target, GOD! WHEW, I’m on fire typing this PRAISE JESUS! It makes me want to praise to the whole new Album by Lindy Conant and clean like never before, because he has been showing me new eyes to see why I am in the place I am in. You are in the place you are supposed to be, Your book of life is open and God is ready to show you whats inside. You have got to be willing to be on fire for him while doing the task. If you lose that fire, set that task down for a second and get that fire lit up again!

If you keep going and let the fire die down then you are not spiritually prepared for what God has waiting for you behind that next door. Then comes the questioning God like why me, I’m not ready can I just go back and finish this first (Luke 9:61)… That’s not a fun place to be in, trust me I know. If you’re in this place right now I pray this is igniting the fire that has been put out. When your fire is lit and on FIRE you are in the Realm waiting on Gods next move and prepared for what he has on top of what you already are doing. Cause our God is so good he will make a way, when the fire is down then you’re not understanding how this will be able to happen.

So, put the praise music on and start letting those time-consuming things bow to the name of Jesus don’t let them control what God wants to do for you. Get spiritually prepared he’s about release something that you thought wasn’t possible, but through God all things are possible (Matt. 19:26).

I am no longer troubled and overcome with FEAR!

Luke 1 verse 12. “When Zacharias saw the angel, he was troubled and overcome with fear.”

This verse just has my heart drawing in more and more. Why would he be troubled and overcome with fear. Because it just wasn’t one thing that happened it was two things.

To be troubled is to be beset by problems or conflict; To be overcome is to succeed in dealing with (a problem or difficulty).

Light Bulb moment! When I’m fearing something while bring it up to address it to God, at times I don’t understand why I question God on how he shows me he will fix things. But wait, he tells us what happen to Zacharias here. He didn’t just have fear of the Angel but was troubled and overcome. That makes so much more sense as to what happens sometimes. I get troubled of the beset problems then the problems overcome me and succeed before God had a chance to step in.

How many times have you been so used to doing something (parenting, cleaning, eating, holidays, etc.) and when a new way comes or God brings something to your attention that he will be changing or doing Fear sets in. You reject or question what he is telling you, it’s not just the fear that sets in though, it’s the troubled and overcome with fear. You see, you had already been overcoming the problem (that something) a way you thought was right, but now God is saying I’m here and I know that TRUE way. At that moment, you tend to think that I got this problem I am not troubled I was but I have overcome this. Reality is the troubled problem has now overcome you, seeing a different way to fix it just isn’t easy as saying YES LORD.

I am here to tell you this is okay. God still loves us in these moments. If you go on to read God still honored Zacharias and Elizabeth, they get to bear a son named John who goes on to do Great works for the Lord.

You see, I’m currently going through this season of parenting with the kids it feels like it won’t ever end. I know it will mentally, but Fear has troubled me and overcome me in times where I have come to God asking for help, thinking there is just no way that anything he tells me will work. God has so much grace for me as a mom right now, he watches me saying ‘okay, Katelyn I know you’re not ready yet, seek out someone else until you are ready’ guess what he is there when I am ready.

Sometimes, I wish he could just mute me as he did with Zacharias so that way he could step in without my input and fear. (HAHA)

But God isn’t a God of control he is a God of free will for his Children to choose him in these times. Even if you serve every day to him he would never force you to choose him. Doesn’t mean he won’t guide and help and talk you during the problem. He loves us so much to give us the free will to lay down all of Fear and let him in. Such a vulnerability in this love.

If this is you, maybe holidays have fear troubling and overcoming you, you’re seeking God but questioning what he has to say. Let’s lay it down today, let’s walk away from that fear, let’s not allow this to trouble us and overcome us right now. I’m closing out this with prayer and if this is something that your struggling with that’s OKAY no condemnation read this prayer with me and give it to God who is right there waiting for you!

Prayer:

Lord, I love you so much. Fear has trouble and overcome me right now to where I’m not seeing how your hands can fix things happening. I come on my knees bowing before you asking that fear be taken off me right now in the Name of El Shaddai (the God ALMIGHTY). I thank you for releasing this fear off me and ask for your help (in situation) ready for whatever you will say, prepared to walk it out in an open loving heart. I believe that any fear that has beset me and succeeded over you Lord is broken off me. I praise your Lord! AMEN!

With Love,

Katelyn Perez   Continue reading

Resting on a Full Tank.

Ahh! My living room looks like a bomb of laundry has exploded 6 loads of clothes everywhere, there is also a dust pan in between it all cause Tim Jr. can’t resist pretending that he is picking up dirt. All while I sit here feeling like I have a flow of snot running out and wont stop. Cherry on top the kids took early nap, so now I’m going to be kid jamming for 7 hours straight cause they don’t go back down. What is happening…

Well lets back up 12 hours+, I was on a HIGH of the love God pours into us moms with friendship. I came home around 11 P.M. from friends dinner and I was so thankful for friends who love me for me, who LOVE Christ! They are some serious friends everyone I believe longs for at some point in their life. They took time last night to break down what Christ was revealing to them about Hanukkah and also telling me about their background and reading the word with it. I was pumped to see God and what is coming out of studying this out. I left my friend’s house with my Tank on FULL! From Friends, Love, Jesus oh and the FOOD! Can’t get any better than that.

I woke around lets say 2 A.M. to my nose pouring, yes grossss!  Then finally fell asleep shortly after, got up with hubs after around 4 A.M. so pumped to tell him about what I learned! We had an amazing conversation for hour about this. I fell back asleep afterwards only to be woke feeling even worse. Now I’m feeling like I’m not doing the laundry, dishes, or anything… Which if you’re a mom this makes you feel probably worse that you can’t do what you had planned to do. My tank is officially on E that fast! Finally after some RC oil by Young Living, Vicks, and Hot Tea, I post to my friends that I’m not feeling hot. I turn on my YouTube and go to my notifications and see Bethel has posted a song called You Can Just Rest. Jesus knew where I was. I needed to hear this. How often do we just not rest, we as mothers, daughters, sisters, aunts, friends push through the rest, give up our full tank not to rest when all we need to do is rest so we don’t lose all the fuel in the Tank! Stop right now, if this is you don’t move forward. Stop and rest there is so much healing in the still place.

Be Still, and Know that He is GOD! 

Y’all I’m telling you that this is the TRUTH to stand on when all this is happening, so if you find yourself today in this place. The place of a FULL tank stolen away so fast and God is calling you to rest so you don’t lose this Tank. Trust him that he will take care of it, REST knowing that he is on your side! 

Psalm 4:8 Amplified Bible (AMP)


In peace [and with a tranquil heart] I will both lie down and sleep,
For You alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety and confident trust. 

I pray this helped you today, I am praying for anyone that is walking through this place of rest today tomorrow or any other day. Please go check out this song while you enter into the Rest place God is calling you to!

Love,

Katelyn Perez

From weak to strong, but first Grace.

In my weakness he is made strong.

I can’t began to tell you how much I personally have quoted this to myself, to others, and others to me. I hear this and know this is the word of God and is true. Let me tell you though in those weak moments I was not comprehending what this scripture really meant.

You see, I had my “weak day” already this week. Monday was like I was sitting inside of a box trying to push through the day “box” and couldn’t. I wanted to I knew I was weak but I honestly was ready to just sit back down and be done. Have you been in this box before? My bad “weak” day consisted of the kids running over me not being able to grasp how to help them in return just probably making things worse for them and my sake, knowing we had a house the view the next day thinking whelp God I know you got this, then realizing in a week I’m heading on Vacation with my mom (clinging to this moment of freedom from this…reality).

I got through it, I knew I needed to contact someone and called to my church and they stood me up, the greatest part was that the women who stood me up. She is such a anointed lady, she not only stood me up she helped me understand that with blended families its okay to feel the way I was, to be at that quitting moment, that it was okay to have a weak “bad” day.

So now it’s Tuesday and today was a smidgen better, I could see light. We made it through it wasn’t perfect but we did it! God is so funny and witty. I say ‘we did it’ sarcastically, because had I just opened up what verse God had been reciting to me these past weeks things would have been a bit different. At the same time his timing is so perfect. Lets take a look back at this scripture real quick. We all know it and recite it to one another, but have you read the first part (the most important part)? Let me put this in Amplified version (Joyce Meyer)

“But He said me, My grace (my favor and loving-kindness and mercy) is enough for you [sufficient against any danger and enables you to bear the the trouble manfully]; for my strength and power are made perfect (fulfilled and completed) and show themselves most effective in [your] weakness. Therefore, I will all the more gladly glory in my weakness and infirmities, that the strength and power of Christ (the Messiah) may rest (yes, may pitch a tent over and dwell) upon me! 2 Corinthians 12:9 (AMP: Joyce Meyer Bible) 

Y’all God’s Grace is enough for us. Yes, he is made perfect and strong in our weak moments. First though His grace is enough! That in those weak moments his grace has already covered us like a tent to protect us and for us to sit and dwell in. Grace: is the power of God to meet our needs and solve our problems. Selah, just soak this in for a second.

Jesus loves me so much that he already was ready on Monday to meet my needs and problems with his LOVE and GRACE so that he could be made strong out of my weakness. I could never love the way Jesus loved us and died on the cross to bear these things. Something I mentioned earlier was that it was okay to have a bad day. Which, by all means is true. I was thinking all along that how can God be made strong when this day isn’t getting better. I hadn’t truly been giving the day to him, inviting God’s love and grace into my day. If I would have been truly practicing this scripture he would have pitched a tent and poured his grace over me an I would have seen the light. I was the camper that says “nope, I know how to pitch this tent and put it together”, but there where leaks and cracks for wend and water to come through, It was not Gods grace-made perfect tent! I had to take down my tent and allow God to place his tent of grace over me and my weakness. I needed to submit my weakness.

Job 22:23-30 Amplified Bible (AMP)
23 
“If you return to the Almighty [and submit and humble yourself before Him], you will be built up [and restored];
If you remove unrighteousness far from your tents,
24 
And place your gold in the dust,
And the gold of Ophir among the stones of the brooks [considering it of little value],
25 
And make the Almighty your gold
And your precious silver,
26 
Then you will have delight in the Almighty,
And you will lift up your face to God.
27 
“You will pray to Him, and He will hear you,
And you will pay your vows.
28 
“You will also decide and decree a thing, and it will be established for you;
And the light [of God’s favor] will shine upon your ways.
29 
“When you are cast down and humbled, you will speak with confidence,
And the humble person He will lift up and save.
30 
“He will even rescue the one [for whom you intercede] who is not innocent;
And he will be rescued through the cleanness of your hands.”

 

What kind of tent are you holding up right now? Is one of your tents Gods and another in an area of your life not so much of Gods? Take the weak tent down… right now… it’s okay take your time. Become weak again, because there is absolutely no shame in weakness. Then, re-read this scripture before you try to reconstruct the tent. Remember first Gods Grace his loving-kindness is enough for you, then allow him to help you put this tent back up and let him be the builder of this, cause when you do it will be God who made it strong and perfect through your weakness.

The spirit of God is moving in your life today, especially in mine. At times I have to submit myself back to him and fully receive his Grace and Love to understand these things. Right now if you don’t know Christ or have walked away from Christ in an area of your life or all of you has, you can come running back or to him saying Yes, I want your Grace, and tent covering me. Lets Pray this prayer.

Lord,

I call upon you right now (Rom.10:13) I know that you are Lord and that you sent your only son Jesus to die on the cross for me, I choose to commit my life to you. That you have Grace sufficient for me, that will help me through my weaknesses. I accept you into my life Lord all of my life, there is not one area I don’t want you to consume. Thank you Lord for all that you have done and all you are doing!

In Jesus name, AMEN!

If you just read this prayer and committed your life, or re-committed your life to the Lord. Please hit the like button so I know, also Share the good news with someone! If you don’t have a church home find a good bible believing church, get involved with groups, make connections to help you in times of weakness. Just as I did on Monday, I needed someone to remind me that it was okay and share with me their story.

Please, share this blog with someone you think it will help. I love you all and will be praying for you!

 

 

 

Leaf Scars.

A Palm Tree.

Palm Tree: an unbranched evergreen tree with a crown of long feathered or fan-shaped leaves, and typically having old leaf scars forming a regular pattern on the trunk. Palms grow in warm regions, especially the tropics.

◦ a leaf of a palm tree awarded as a prize or viewed as a symbol of victory or triumph.

Okay.

Let’s take a quick second and back up. I have been talking to my husband saying, “I just don’t have anything to blog about”. My husband tried encouraging me asking me about ideas. Then we even went to a wedding and I was sure God would really pull something out to blog about, example UNITY! Nope. I definitely felt his presence, still just wasn’t something I was being lead to share. So now this week we are on our way to Corpus Christi, TX for a vacation. Our first Vacay since we have been married. Hallelujah, definitely needed! As we drove down I praised and worshiped and prayed. I wasn’t getting anything. Then 30 minutes before we pulled up to my brother-in-laws. I saw a Palm Tree and I said to Tim “babe how cool are Palm Trees”. Then I felt this feeling to just look up the definition.

As I read the top of the tree ‘palms’ are called the crown!And the trunk ‘leaf scars’ are the crowns that grew into the trunk as it achieved a new crown of growth! Like HOLY MOLY! This is us as Christians. We started as seeds that slowly grew over time earning different crowns, but we just don’t throw away everything we learned and earned for those crowns, they just become apart of us as we grow into our next crown! Sometimes those leaf scars, are great things we love to remember, some not so much. But they don’t go anywhere no matter good or bad they stay on our trunk.

Ephesians 4:14-16 New International Version (NIV)

14 Then we will no longer be infants, tossed back and forth by the waves, and blown here and there by every wind of teaching and by the cunning and craftiness of people in their deceitful scheming. 15 Instead, speaking the truth in love, we will grow to become in every respect the mature body of him who is the head, that is, Christ. 16 From him the whole body, joined and held together by every supporting ligament, grows and builds itself up in love, as each part does its work.

Y’all all those leaf scars are the same as the supporting ligaments that grows/builds us up in love! Which shows us how to love even in the best of times to the worst of times. I’ve learned something so far this year, is most the time when the bad is coming my way I’m so pumped for what Gods love is going to show me through this. The only reason I’m pumped about the bad is because I have those leaf scars that already proved to me 100x how those crowns will grow into another amazing crown.

Look again at the second part of the definition. It says “a leaf of a palm tree awarded as a prize or viewed as a symbol of victory or triumph.” symbols of VICTORY or TRIUMPH! I HAVE A CROWN OF VICTORY AND TRIUMPH! Y’all Declare this RIGHT NOW! Don’t look at those leaves as downers. Every time you see them picture them as VICTORY’S and TRIUMPHS! Even the crown you are wearing now is a Victory Crown and a Triumph Crown!

Psalm 149:4 New International Version (NIV)

For the Lord takes delight in his people;
    he crowns the humble with victory.

For the Lord takes delight in ME; He CROWNS me when I am humble with victory.

I really needed this I didn’t even realize that I had needed this. Last week I attended a class at Gateway about Overcoming Anxiety. I defiantly needed it after the morning I had with the kids and also preparing for our vacation week.  When I was there I kept thinking about my Anxiety with the kids and realizing so many things I for sure needed to change. What I wasn’t prepared for what anxiety I had deep down hiding in those leaf scars. Something the speaker had us do was picture some of those moments that we don’t like to and place Jesus in them, she told us that now when those memories come up or moment that had happen, we will now see Jesus in them. He died for us, Why wouldn’t he be with us in those scars? I honesty didn’t know if this would work, let me tell you something it totally did. I have been struggling with some stuff from the past that I totally shoved so far down that honestly it become something I sorta forgot about. I’m still processing some stuff, it’s not all perfect, but now when it comes to thought I see JESUS y’all I see him sitting with me holding my hand. He tells me its going to be okay and instead of those leaf scars being scars they are turning into things of victory and triumph for me.

I don’t know your past (whoever you are reading this) but I do know Jesus. I know that he died to take those scars, he really wants to take them from you. Not to forget them, but to turn them into VICTORY’S and TRIUMPHS! If you have a minute, take that minute and find Jesus in those moments. Let him help you through them, don’t think it should happen immediately or tomorrow. Like I said I’m still processing things, they are changing for the good though. I’m actually excited for this Palm Tree life ready for my crown to grow from crown to crown to see those past crowns awarded to me as victory’s and triumphs. I pray that you are ready for this now too!

2 Corinthians 3:18 New International Version (NIV)

18 And we all, who with unveiled faces contemplate[a] the Lord’s glory, are being transformed into his image with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit.

 

 

What Are You Going To Blog About Today?

Being new to this, your post totally motivates me.

Fractured Faith Blog

It has come to my attention (well I do investigate for a living after all) that I follow a lot of fantastic bloggers. I try to keep up with as many of them as I can and, where possible, offer encouragement and support. I can’t do that with them all, though, as otherwise I would never be off WordPress but even if it means just liking a post, I do it. Just to let people know that I care and appreciate their written efforts. It’s the least I can do given the tremendous support we receive on a daily basis.

The flip side of that is that a lot of bloggers don’t blog or, if they do, it is very infrequently. You see it all the time. The ‘Sorry I haven’t blogged in ages but I’ve been soooooo busy/life got in the way/haven’t had anything to say’ type introductions. Delete…

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Deeper.

I want to know you deeper.

Something that God keeps bringing me back to when I worship is knowing him on a more deeper and intimate level. When I first heard this song “Touch of Heaven” by Hillsong, I began to really think about my spiritual walk and calling. I even remember texting my friend as I drove my daughter to her other parents that this is “My Heart Cry Song”. What I didn’t understand was what God was about to do and show me.

You see, when I picture diving into a deep relationship with him there is this crazy spiritual calling, helping others through him. I was not applying this to my life and what I’m currently doing. I am currently on summer break from being super busy during the week, except now my weekends look like I have no time for anyone or anything besides what is planned. But during the week my Husband and I agreed to start eating healthy. I wanted to try… again… the paleo diet, with that no sugar and no coffee. Yes I know, what am I thinking. We have been doing it now for two weeks. The first week I was so exhausted. No coffee and my kids running a muck. I was lost, confused, and over the weekend gave into some not so paleo foods. I’m starting up this second week wondering how to get back on track. Throwing my hands up thinking I better just stop and do regular ‘American’ meals.

But it hit me tonight that’s not what God wants. You see he wants to know us DEEPER…. selah…. Y’all he wants to know all my cravings, tiredness, fed upness (we shall call that a word), know everything. For me right now it’s the simple things of eating and time management. For you it may be your Heart, Soul, Life, Secrets, Etc. We all have things that he needs to know us deeper in, and we have to allow him to know us that way. To open our self up to him no matter how big or small that thing is, because to him every thing you bring and allow his hand and words to fill up is a HUGE thing.

Something I heard last night at the Presbytery Service at Gateway Church. Who wants to go to the Holy Spirit telling him want needs to happen, I surly don’t want to. Guess what? I have and still tend to do. I have been going to him about this diet telling him ‘nope not today’, about eating semi healthy ‘nah maybe tomorrow’, I’ll clean that later…tomorrow. Let me tell you it hasn’t ever turned out right for me. So allowing God to come deeper and opening myself up to him is allowing the Holy Spirit to work. When the Holy Spirit is moving in the area I need attention, it never fails is goes great!

So, if your at this place where he keeps telling you through worship, dreams, visions, reading, or just plain telling you to go deeper. Than dig around some, don’t be afraid. Take the dive deeper. He is a good daddy. He will help you through whatever obstacle you think is big or small. Cause to him they are all HUGE breakthroughs.

PRAYER:

Daddy,

I come to you right now, I can feel this pull to go deeper with you. I’m not sure yet of the reason why this is pulling me. But open me up examine my ways Lord. Help me change my mind set, give me a mind of you. I know that you will love on me throughout this and this will be a ongoing thing. I thank you for allowing me to be able to do this. That you died so that I could be set free and go deeper into the love that you have for me. Lord, just have your way in me.

Amen.

God Made That.

“Mom stop messing with my hair” -Braelyn.

“Look, I made that hair… (laughs)” -Mom.

“No mom God made my hair.” -Braelyn.

‘Totally schooled face.’ Mom.


This is the conversation my oldest and I had. Let me tell you she truly schooled me. She’s only Three Years Old. I was so proud and also like wait a minute in your momma!

But the reality of it is, this is so true. As moms we grow for nine months + a beautiful baby. Then we help them grow up to a toddler. Then to a Teenager. After all that an Adult. We do the work in education, confidence, grooming, and etc.

It seems so natural to say “I made that” but truth be told we didn’t.

God did. Selah. Repeat. GOD DID.

“So it is written: “The first man Adam became a living being”; the last Adam, a life-giving spirit. The spiritual did not come first, but the natural, and after that the spiritual.”

‭‭1 Corinthians‬ ‭15:45-46‬ ‭NIV‬‬

God made us and our children. Now I believe that we are sent here to help them grow and teach them. To be examples for them. That when the day comes for our children to have their own children and families they will have the reverent respect for what a gift they are from the Lord.

I’m sure deep down in our hearts we all know this. Sometimes though our pride from all the hard work takes over. Thats where we have to submit ourselves to the word of God even when we dot want to. When you do that so much changes. When my children act up it reminds me what my purpose is to do, instead of yelling asking why they wont straighten up. You see, cause the only way they can line back up is with the Fathers word, which we are to teach them. Yes, we need to show them how but first we must show them their true unfailing, great love, and grace giving father. When they fall away from remembering this we have to show them. In the way of how we respond to everything we do. God gives us such a great privilege to raise our children up like Christ. That sentence right there is so convicting to me, also overwhelming at times. How can I do that when all my children are different in their own way. Then it brings me back to how different every person was that Jesus had to have talked to that we see in the Bible. The crazy part was he was the same to all of them. The scripture that comes to my mind is: Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not-self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. (1 Corinthians 13: 4-7) Something I learned over the past year, that a lot of times we read this but do you put God in front of all those great things in the scripture.

God is Patient, God is Kind, God does not envy, God does not boast, He is not proud. God does NOT dishonor others, He is not self seeking, God is not EASILY angered, He keeps NO record of wrongs. God’s love does not delight in evil but REJOICES with truth. He always protects, He always Hopes, He always perseveres. 

If God is all of these things, how much more do we need to be this for our children, to show them that they belong to God as well and they can be these things too! WOAH. Like revelation moment for me, I’m sure for some of you as well…

This isn’t something that will come easy, maybe some days it will be easy for you and others just plain out difficult. But we have a great Father who can teach us how to parent and how to raise them up to serve him. Remember that these children are a gift from God, so seek him first to help with them.

Closing this out I want us as mothers to join together with this. Lets help each other out, if you have questions or just need help. Maybe even great advice to help others out leave a comment with this. Lets change our ways and teach our children who God is and how great he is!

With so much LOVE,

Katelyn.

what’s next…?

Okay God you got my attention, what’s next?

This is what kept running through my mind, when I woke up at 1:30am from the night I posted the first blog. All that ran through my mind was the word ‘Obedient’. Obviously, I had to go check the phone and read what he wants to show me at 1:30am so I can go back to sleep. Well guess what he lead me to Isaiah.

“If you are willing and obedient, you shall eat the good of the land;”

‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭1:19‬ ‭AMPC

I can eat of the Good Land? Even after all I have done, all I’m still going through? Are you sure. He tells me AGAIN… Yes YOU KATELYN can eat of the good land. Just don’t forget the most important part to be WILLING, and OBEDIENT. Wow. This has my eyes wide open now.

Let’s look at this. Willing: what does this word really mean? Eager, Ready are just a few definition words I saw. So I must be EAGER AND READY AT ALL TIMES. Okay I can do this. Then it says Obedient: a person yields to explicit instructions or orders from an authority figure. Whattttt. Y’all we are to YEILD to GOD (authority figure) to his explicit instructions.. The Bible is the explicit instructions! So if I am EAGER AND READY TO YEILD TO GODS EXPLICIT INSTRUCTIONS, I SHALL (not should) EAT THE GOOD OF THE LAND!!! Selah [pause, and think of that]Now it’s Monday (memorial day) my husband is home with us today. Let’s begin with it’s not the picture perfect day I envisioned. After the life changing Sunday we had then to this “tear a heart down” Monday. I completely put aside what God revealed to me at 1:30am on Sunday. I definitely wasn’t eager and ready to hear what God had to say about what was going on in the home. Like you probably are thinking there was definitely no eating of the good land.

Until my husband left around 1230 for a hair cut the kids had went down for their naps. I took a second to just breathe, and he repeated the scripture in my head I started to push it away then he repeated the word WILLING. I just shouted IM WILLING, EAGER, and READY. Instantly I could feel the atmosphere change. The devil just had to flee, I’m not saying it didn’t take surrendering my will to his at least three more times. But each time just was proof of his goodness, the food in the good land.

This isn’t just for me, this is for all of you as well. All you have to do is call out this scripture and ANY bad spirit will leave and you can then open the door to eat of Gods good land.

God,

We come to you today we ask to receive the ability to surrender our Will and Obedience to you no matter how many times it takes. Lord, if there is anyone struggling with this issue that I know of please show me how to be a walking example of what your good land looks like. That they may want what this is. I thank you for what you are already doing to all the hearts reading this post. I love you.

Amen.

Whelp.. It’s Happening?

So as I am sitting here in my living room at 10:09 p.m. I decided lets try this whole blog thing people say is amazing, particularly my friend Lacey tells me. Now to start off I am not a English major nor believe I have ever really been that. So these blogs might just be a bit messy before I truly get this down, but I know not by my might, not by my power, but by the Spirit of GOD I will get this down to a “T”.

Oh yeah, did I mention that I LOVE MY LORD AND SAVIOR! Guess I should break myself down to you first. I am 24 Year stay at home wife and momma. I am a God fearing women! I am married (Oct. 2018 will be 2 yrs.). Timothy is my Husband he is a true Gift from the Lord. We have Three (YES, I said 3) Beautiful, Handsome, Smart, Loving, Outgoing children. Braelyn is our oldest (3) Abigail (2) Timothy Jr. aka: Timbo (1). So, i’m sure you are thinking “okay, married 2 years oldest is 3 years???”. YES, we are a wonderful created Blended Family, Braelyn is my daughter from a prior relationship, Abigail is my step-daughter from my husbands prior relationship, Timbo is our son together. We have one amazing dog (Boarder Collie/Huskey) her name is Maddie. Together we have one amazing Family.

I have recently pulled back from really participating in speaking at church, to spend more time with God, also to just have family time. As I mentioned we are a blended family so sometimes things can get a bit hectic and needs Gods attention and my full attention as well. When it has been brought up about blogging I was thinking, that’s just not for me… But after reading some blogs that I follow and my friend Lacey (LaceinGrace.com) I began to re-think that decision. Let me tell you why.

So this past weekend (May 18-19) I attended a watch party for PINK IMPACT 2018. The theme was FEARLESS, I know you are thinking okay so now you have become “fearless”, well NOPE haha. I actually received a prophetic word. The affirmation was ” I surrender my will to the Lord’s perfect will.” . At first I knew about 5-10 things this meant, defiantly blogging wasn’t one of those things. But I decided to study this more on why I got this, As I read Psalm 27 I still wasn’t quiet getting this.

Then I came across Psalm 139 this whole chapter just registered with me on a deep level, I could feel God saying something but just wasn’t quiet getting it. I was determined to understand why. I told myself to read this daily and confess and praise him (Verse 14) so that he could search my heart and try me and know my thoughts (Verse 23). By Thursday all I could think about was writing, which is not like me. I followed what he wanted me to do. As I wrapped up telling God everything on paper, it’s like this weight like the weight of having to tell someone something immediately lifted and I knew he fixed everything that I needed and more. I allowed HIS will to take over instead of MINE. Sounds simple and easy, for me not so much. Being a mom of 3 children under 3 years can drive you up the wall wanting to express things to adults. So I tend to call my mom 5-10 times a day just to talk, call my husband least 10-12 times a day. YES I know thats a lot.

After all that I came to know that God doesn’t want me to feel like this blog is just a blog he wants this to be a way for me to express whats going on, but also a way to “tame” my tongue (1 Sam. 2:3). You see God wants His will done NOT mine. My will is to call anyone to speak about whats going on with the kids, to tell about the next thing going on in the house, to just speak about anything. Even though I know my mouth and tongue is something he tells me to watch, this blog will truly help me understand his will for me to think before I speak. At the same time allowing me to tell you all about whats happening. God is such a good God he knows I LOVE to talk so he gives things like a blog where I can still tell my story but also think about his will first! I am ready for this journey y’all, also glad I will get to do this with y’all.

Search me, God, and know my heart;
    test me and know my anxious thoughts. -Psalm 139:23